What are your favorite types of foods?
I like sweets, chocolate, bananas anything sweet
Yes I do
Do you see yourself as a leader?
I see myself as transformational leader, who leads with her heart and kindness
What’s your favorite word?
Fuck, full of raw emotions.
Feminine/Goddess energy
What’s the feminine energy all about? It is subtle but assertive, sensual, and playful. Invites you to relax, to be and to create. When I connect to this energy makes me feel happy, I am all smiling and creating content or coming up with new ideas. Makes me very curious and play with what if scenarios that brings me joy and contentment.
How I connect with the energy is simple, I put relaxing, smooth or romantic music like bossa nova or Frank Sinatra. Candles, eat sensual fruits or drinks and just start creating either by painting or dancing and writing.
The feminine energy invites us to slow down and savour each moment with joy and sensuality. It truly is an assertive energy because it knows what it wants from us, to just be ourselves in our most relaxed state possible.
I invite you to connect with this feminine energy after work and when you have free time and see how you go from doing to being.
What are you doing this evening?
I will be learning about digital marketing while listening to bossa nova.
What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?
Being fake. Trying to be like everybody else. Not having an original thought.
POEMS OF MY SOUL VOL. 2
11/10/21
Despair
In the midst of despair I found myself
It’s still fall out, but am already in winter
What a time to sit with my shadow
After the light is block she emerges
She says, “Hey look at me! Am you!”
I turned towards her and I see is me
I asked, “where are you? All I see is me”
She replies, “we are the same, just negative labels. That society has place on me. Set me free! I beg you!”
I reply, “ my light is broken too. We cannot escape.”
Shadow says, “trust me, just follow my lead then, I will set us both free.”
Just turn off your light and let our love guide us.
Let’s dive in love to be free.
Always remember, in the midst of despair only our own love can save us.
11/8/21
The Rejected
Fuck Society!
The Business world rejected me fresh out of college
Then my next adventure in politics, I was rejected too
Use my gift in the hospital and ended up rejected
Went into teaching and was rejected.
They all wonder what was that thing about me that made me so powerful
My energy scared them.
Try getting into business and they only way I made it was as investor
I am too special to fit in a box
I break the boxes I try to fit in
All I ever wanted was to experience the mundane
But I turned the mundane into the most unique experience.
Rejected for being amazing
11/8/21
Society
Oh you insane criminal!
Labels me society.
The doctors labeled me insane, mentally ill.
The cops labeled me as a criminal.
The psych ward patients labeled me the holy spirit.
No regular job will hire me with those labels.
My only options are to be label disabled, win the lottery, or marry rich.
Other see me as healer
Who is the bipolar now?
The world is an asylum
The system is broken
Everybody is tired of the nonsense
I want out!
The being of light says “You are doing good job sweetie.”
I wonder what’s the point of being awake?
It feels like being sober around drunk people
What are chakras and meridians?
Chakras and meridians are two interconnected systems from ancient healing traditions that describe how life force energy flows through the body.
Chakras come from the yogic traditions of India. The word chakra means “wheel” in Sanskrit, symbolizing spinning energy centers along the spine. There are seven main chakras, each linked to physical, emotional, and spiritual aspects of life. Starting from the base of the spine and moving upward, they are:
- Root (Muladhara): grounding, survival, security.
- Sacral (Svadhisthana): creativity, pleasure, emotions.
- Solar Plexus (Manipura): confidence, willpower, personal power.
- Heart (Anahata): love, compassion, relationships.
- Throat (Vishuddha): communication, truth, expression.
- Third Eye (Ajna): intuition, insight, wisdom.
- Crown (Sahasrara): spiritual connection, unity, higher consciousness.
Balanced chakras are said to support overall well-being, while blockages may manifest as physical illness or emotional distress. Practices like meditation, yoga, breathwork, and energy healing are used to harmonize them.
Meridians come from Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM). They are energy pathways that run throughout the body, much like invisible rivers. Life force energy, called Qi (chi), flows through these meridians to nourish organs, tissues, and systems. There are twelve primary meridians corresponding to major organs (such as lungs, heart, stomach, kidneys, and liver), plus additional channels that regulate balance.
When Qi flows smoothly, the body is healthy; when blocked or stagnant, it can cause pain or disease. Techniques like acupuncture, acupressure, tai chi, and qigong are designed to restore flow along the meridians.
Together, chakras and meridians describe a holistic map of the human energy system. Chakras act like central hubs of energy, while meridians serve as highways connecting those hubs throughout the body. Both frameworks emphasize the deep connection between body, mind, and spirit, offering pathways for healing, balance, and self-awareness.
Poems of my Soul Vol. 1
Here are some of the poems I wrote few years ago, enjoy them and let me know what you think.
11/10/21
The needs of my soul
To be worry free
To be understood
To explore
To go on adventures
To have fun
To be loved
To get high on love
To rest
To slow down
To make love
To Daydream
To be creative
To play and dance
To be seen and heard
11/10/21
Madness!
Oh! To be madness is…
To be free
To be Unique
To see the truth
To stand out
To be authentic
To be creative
To embrace it all
To be madness is to say Fuck You! To Society and do You!
9/22/21
My Neighbors Trees
I do not know your names but you gave shades during the sunny hot days of summer.
I always look forward to your changes.
I love watching you during the spring as your leaves blossom.
In fall I love watching your leaves change colors.
But the other day, I finally saw you in your glory.
It was just the 4 of you standing next to each other strong and powerful.
And what I saw was not just your essence but the essence of my soul.
For what I see in you, exists in me.
11/10/21
Winter Eve
Leaves are falling
Days getting shorter
Colder airs are in
Time to retrieve
Go deep within
Find warmth in the depth of my soul
Be ready for the times of despair that winter brings.
About Me
My name Stephanie and I live in New Jersey. By trade I am a former Spanish educator, Markerter and currently a Reiki Master and Artist. I paint abstract art, write poems and dance.
I am in service to others in different ways, I help older adults navigate social security and other benefits. I serve as emotional support to my peers.
I’m mentally disabled but still in service in my spare time while I am not writing, painting, learning, doing reiki, dancing, in the sauna or going for acupuncture.
I see a therapist, energy healer and a psych doctor once a month.
After my last relapse I took my wellness seriously and I am about holistic wellness and taking care of myself mind, body and spirit.
I will share more about my mental health journey and education as I hold an undergrad degree in marketing, masters degree in education and certifications in holistic wellness and reiki. Currently working in a digital marketing certification.
Stephanie Espana 